I tried my best to stay cold,
to appear heartless, to appear careless.
But for the thousandth times,
I failed.
My heart fall for him,
and I hate myself for that.
I hate myself for being so pathetic,
I hate myself for giving too much attention,
I hate myself for being overly-care,
I tried not to think about him,
but I barely did that.
I tried so hard to stand still,
but I failed.
There's time, I think i was special to him,
but, apparently no.
There's time, I think he needs me,
but, i dont think so.
I just hope to be appreciated. Little bit.
Whatever it is,
I will go on,
I will make sure he is happy,
I will remind him when he forget about Allah,
I will tell him if he did wrong,
As long as I'm here,
I will do that, even sometimes it hurts.
Dear myself,
That's a fitrah.
Nak jaga tu kena bermujahadah dgn betul.
This is a test that Allah give to you.
with a guy..
a guy..
Stay strong. Get a firm grip.
I will always keep this quite.
he won't know this..
Unless by Allah's will.
Dear Allah, help me.
Dear Allah, please take care of him.